Oh, this blogging thing.

I really only HAVE a blog for following other peoples blogs and occasionally making lists.
I got to thinking, why is that?
Why am I as disconnected from the Blog world as I am from the real one?
Why don't I ever reach out? It isn't like I even comment on peoples blogs that often. I follow them religiously - I feel like they are my friends, people you catch up with over coffee - except they aren't and they don't know I exist.
Which pretty much sums up my "real" life.
I am 21 years old and I live in a rural Australian town - not the kind of rural that people from other countries imagine, I'm not in the outback, after all. But rural all the same - a mining town isolated from other towns and cities, and it is pretty much my universe.
My parents separated nearly two years ago, and they both live separately far from here. I have a wonderful fiancee who is as much of a hermit as I am, and I have 3 half siblings scattered around (my dads children from a previous marriage) and a sister at the other end of the country.
I have no friends.
I guess I don't "try" to MAKE friends, but how does one do that, anyway? I've always been an outsider, and I don't know anyone in this town. David (the wonderful fiancee) grew up here, I lived here for a couple of years 15 years ago, just long enough to make a connection with a friend who eventually introduced me to David online. That friend isnt a friend any more (as so many childhood friendships seem to go) but David stuck. David is a few years older than me and none of his friends live here any more, moved onto better (or just different) things - so here we are, Emma and David, living in a town where the only people either of us know are Davids parents, and his sister (who is, actually, quite awesome) and I guess we are just trying to get by and figure out this whole "life" thing.

The loneliness is as sharp as a knife.

Things That I Want To Acquire

DVDs and Boxsets of television listed here : http://mitteny.blogspot.com/2010/02/television-i-want.html (which have $ sign next to them)

A flat grill

A blender

A red kettle

Disney DVDs

Pretty fabrics

Pretty ribbons and beads

The This is Why You're Fat book

The Big Book of British Smiles

A dressmakers dummy

Pretty things - fake pearl jewellery, costume jewellery, bridal jewellery

A lace dress!!

Candles

Incense

Perfume! Miss Dior, Anais Anais, Sunflowers, POISON! Mariah, Britney Spears's anything, anything with a pretty bottle (lol)

A vanity set - glass atomiser and other stuff. Pref. pink.

Pretty hair accessories

Pretty bracelets

A nice (or cute!) bento box

Hello Kitty stationery

A sewing machine and overlocker

Old school Barbie colouring and/or activity books

Puzzles and Jigsaws

A fancy candy dish (ala Target)

Nice bedroom furniture

Lingerie

Stuff with roses and lace and pearls

Stuff that comes in tins!

These meditation balls http://bellirosa.com/store/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=75&products_id=2785

A glass cutting kit

Lots of pretty cushions

Lovely bedding

Indian things :)

BOOKS! I love books!

Cookbooks

Kitchenware

Dress patterns for disney princesses (srsly)

a tiara

Worry dolls

Rainbow things!

glittery things!

Embossing glitter - esp. pink and gold

Nail polish

False eyelashes

Other Mary Poppins dolls

All the Wizard of Oz dolls

Just about anything Wizard of Oz

Especially the old illustrations and the old book!

Toys!

Everything by Enid Blyton, esp. Wishing Chair and Faraway Tree

Everything in the Babysitters Club and Babysitters Little Sister series

Madonna and Cyndi Lauper style clothing - gloves, bows, tutus...

Anklets

Stockings

High heel shoes and boots

Nice makeup

A nice glasses case

Earrings!!!!

Old fashion magazines

Girls Annuals

Lots of stuff! Try asking!

Collections...

Tales from the Darkside is an anthology horror TV series produced by George A. Romero; it originally aired in syndication from 1983 to 1988. Similar to Amazing Stories, The Twilight Zone, Night Gallery, The Outer Limits, and Tales From The Crypt, each episode was an individual short story that ended with a plot twist.

Tales from the darkside dvds
Twilight Zone DVDs and merch
Tales from the crypt dvds
night gallery?

Television I want

% A Baby Story
% Ruby
Sixteen and Pregnant*
Teen Mom*
% Engaged and Underage*
% High School Stories
% The Hills
% Jersey Shore
My Super Sweet Sixteen
% Sex... With Mom and Dad

Springer
Maury
Cops
How I met your mother
% Wings
King of Queens
$ Whos the Boss
% Charles in Charge
% Dinosaurs
% Alf
$ Saved By the Bell
% Taxi
% Perfect Strangers
% Family Affair
$ Family Ties
% Family Matters
% Diff'rent Strokes
$ Malcolm in the Middle
% The Monkees
% Growing Pains
% Step by Step
% Soap
% The Facts of Life
$ Beavis and Butthead
8 Simple Rules
$ Home Improvement
% Fresh Prince of Bel Air
% The Jeffersons
% The Odd Couple
% Good Times
$ That 70's Show
$ Roseanne
$ The Golden Girls
$ The Cosby Show
The Wonder Years
$ Will and Grace
% Threes Company
% Happy Days
% All in the Family
% Arrested Development
% Curb Your Enthusiasm
% Two and a Half Men
$ My Name is Earl
$ Everybody Loves Raymond
% 30 Rock
$ Everybody Hates Chris
% Help Me Help You
% Becker
% Lost
$ Fawlty Towers
$ Freaks and Geeks
$ The Young Ones
% Designing Women
% Night Court
% Silver Spoons
% Coach
% Reba
% Murphy Brown
% Charmed
% Dawsons Creek
$ Murder, She Wrote
% Psych
$ Just Shoot Me
% Ned and Stacey
$ Sabrina
% NewsRadio
% Spin City
% Quincy, M.E
% Monk
Numb3rs
$ Medium
% Californication
% Lie To Me
% Modern Family
% Brothers & Sisters
$ Cold Case
$ Without a Trace
% The New Adventures of Old Christine
% Big Bang Theory
% Dynasty
% Maude
$ Touched by an angel
% Hotel
% Criminal Minds
$ Muppet Babies
% The Good Wife
% Gary Unmarried
% Rules of Engagement
$ Unsolved Mysteries
$ Judging Amy
% Due South
% Northern Exposure
% Picket Fences
$ Twilight Zone
$ Little Britain
% Spaced
$ League of Gentlemen
% Marion and Geoff
% 15 Storeys High
% Green Wing
% Royle Family
% Yes Minister
% Bottom
$ Vicar of Dibley
Clarissa Explains it All
% Moesha
% One Foot in the Grave
Coupling
% Men Behaving Badly

Law and Order - all $$$
Letterman
Dr Phil
Oprah
Judge Judy
Divorce Court

$Brady Bunch
$Cheers
$Degrassi
$Dollhouse
$Family Guy
$Gilmore Girls
Gossip Girl
$House
$Punky Brewster
$Scrubs
$South Park
$Supernatural
$The Simpsons
$King of the hill
$ The Nanny
Being Erica
$ The Partridge Family
$ Married....with Children
$ Futurama

Cougartown
Ugly Betty
Greys Anatomy
Glee

$ Father Ted

How to Be People

Something I haven't quite grasped yet is how to be a Person. I read Super-mom blogs and they have all these great things they do with their kids and all these things they do with their husbands and places they go and they have Spaghetti Thursdays and a hut out on the creek and summer holidays interstate... and I am just an unemployed childless fairly much friendless throwback.
I have spent weeks watching The Brady Bunch, posting pointless forum replies, eating things I know I shouldn't, and looking for MTV reality TV videos online.
I've read some British magazines and made spaghetti and meatballs, and I started colouring a racy canvas with oil pastels... I've watched Cops and Greys Anatomy and developed an interest in Richard Dawkins, and I went out to dinner, dinner, dinner, lunch, dinner, and lunch, but thats all... for WEEKS.
BLAAAAAAAAAAAH.
I need work or education or something to aspire to. Even moving house and having to build a home from boxes would be brilliant right now.

Things I want to buy - or receive for my 21st.

A tablet with decent sensitivity and lots of features.
Meditation balls
dressmakers dummy
A flat grill.
A banquet frypan.
Mighty boosh
Flight of the Conchords
posters from the oatmeal
glorious shoes
an iPad
full house boxset
brady bunch on dvd
gilmore girls boxset
disney dvds
candles, incense, other witchy things! (not even entertaining the idea that witches exist. Theyre just PRETTY.)
a good camera
earrings - lots of them
bracelets and bangles
beautiful cushions - like my elephant
good pillows and doona
nice bedding
braces
pro teeth whitening
a snuggie
A terabyte

DR TIMS.

I'm following my weight in pounds as well as kilograms for two reasons - the number in lbs seems more shameful and motivating, and also the weight loss numbers will be bigger and more motivating. We use kilos where I'm from. Yay.

My weight: 27.10.09: 267.773lbs / 121.46kg
3.11.09: /117.36
10.11.09: /117
17.11.09: /115.7

Dr Tims Flavours:
BARS

Improved Original: Tastes really doughy and leaves a weird grainy residue in my mouth. Not good.
Choc Hazelnut:
Apricot and Sesame:

SHAKES

Vanilla:
Chocolate:
Cappuccino:
Banana:
Strawberry:
Caramel:

SOUPS

Chicken:
Beef Curry:
Gourmet Pumpkin:

MOUSSES

Summer Berry:
Choc-a-Lot:

MISCELLANEOUS

Cheese and Bacon Crepe:
Chocolate Bar: Very nice! Creamy and light, a very nice treat. Portion is tiny but worthwhile.
Wafers:

MEANWHILE

Skipping is harder than I thought it would be.

Billy's Bootcamp: